Life without screen
242/300. Loneliness and boredom
Somebody asked me how I deal with the boringness of my house and the loneliness that was sure to follow and I said, “Well enough. At least I’ve got novels to read.” And it wasn’t until those words were out of my mouth that I realized how true they actually were.
Few days ago, my phone gave up on me and I spent 3 excruciating(just because I want it to be as dramatic as possible) days without my phone. No internet and no nothing. I still had small battery life in the phone before it had utterly refused to charge again and the screen had decided to pull out and become independent.
And I realized that if I hadn’t had to worry a bit about a work I was supposed to send out, I’d probably not have minded staying without internet. With the low battery, I could still read the bunch of psychological/murder thriller and Dark romance books I’d downloaded.
In the midst of that, I’d had to go to school and the entire 2 hours journey needed something to get by with and I didn’t have my phone anymore because it had completely packed up that morning. So here I’m sitting in this bus, face straight ahead, eyes blinking once per minute and minute interaction with my seatmate and I had to do that for more time than ever.
Funny, how you’d be able to see the world when you’re not staring down at your screen.
I’d discovered that we had a dental and braces clinic in my city. Discovered a few super mart’s I didn’t know existed either.
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Same person as earlier did ask how I’m able to do away with loneliness and boredom since I’d claimed I didn’t go online very often and that also got me thinking.
I get bored too. Easily maybe but I really think loneliness is a rather big word. How is it lonely if you really do enjoy your own company?
When I’m not in my father’s house with his wife and children, I’m in my lodge with two of my roommates and there’s never been a time I didn’t wish I lived alone. Live very much on my own.
And when my roommates do travel, it could be considered sufficiently the easiest periods.
Boredom is one thing but loneliness isn’t exactly what you’d think it is in my dictionary.
Maybe because I think we often mistake being lonely with being alone. I can perfectly be alone. But loneliness has more to do with social relationships and social isolations.
Of course it is okay to feel lonely, okay to experience loneliness. And people do from time to time.
But I think I have to actually find social interactions exhilarating to feel actual loneliness. And for someone with social anxiety, I think loneliness might have to find another table to sit on.
And while we’re on the subject of loneliness. I think another reason people feel lonely is when you’re in a crowd, in a room full of people and only know yourself. Maybe yourself and the two not-friends-but-you-know-them guys that you just waved out. Watching the interactions between everybody and the person they know can actually be very lonely especially when you give two hoots about being alone in a crowd.
I guess our social life need a charge or two if we want to sustain against solitude.
