(Explore myself!)
“GHAT”
Before I start sharing my small journey let me explain about the meaning of ‘ghat’, “stairs or a passage leading down to a river” another meaning is that “a wide set of steps descending to a river”.
Two months ago, I heard about this place but didn’t think so much about visiting there or maybe not finding anything interesting in this place.
Sunday morning!
Get up late around 11 pm. After getting up as usual I was scrolling my phone and while scrolling thinking about a place to visit and have some time with my friends or with me and it was Sunday, so it’s the best day for travel and grab some moments.
While getting up from bed, instantly one place got stuck in my mind a few days back. I heard a description about this place from my friend. Then I started to search about this place on Google maps, the distance and took a guide from my friends also. I thought of asking my friends to join me but they already kept plans for Sunday, so didn’t ask them.
By 3:30 pm I got ready for my solo trip. I took a water bottle and some biscuits also. I had lunch with my stomach full but still thought to take it if I get hungry and kept everything in one bag.
Before I stepped out I took out my scarf and covered my neck and ear properly to keep warm.
While I was walking, I was thinking it was quite difficult for me to find a new place but I was feeling excited also. Standing at the bus stop waiting, a little far away, I looked at a bus and got up. I always choose to sit by the window only and love to observe everything while traveling. That keeps distracting me from my own thoughts that go in my mind.
It took one hour to reach the “sovabazar”. I could take the metro also to reach Sovabazar station but thought of traveling by bus only because I was very excited to see the road.
Few shops were closed and the rush was also less from a normal day. After arriving at the bus stop, I opened my Google map and then I put the location which I was looking for. Then after a few minutes I followed my map. I have to walk for around 20 minutes. Then I reached the spot and looked around with silent thoughts. I was standing there
An evening at sovabazar (Kolkata)
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I saw so many people were sitting on the stairs. (There are cement steps that lead to water.) Some were recording the views and having tea and “jhal Muri”, among them one girl was singing and one boy was playing flute. One boy was sitting alone and enjoying listening to songs. One girl kept her head on his shoulder and he was playing guitar. I felt that was a really lovely moment for me. I found a place for me to sit and then took out my headphones to listen to a song. After a while, when I looked behind, I saw grandma and grandpa came and sat together. They were also having “jhal muri” with hot tea (garam-garam chai).
Little touch of my past!
Really love this view a lot and lost myself with that view only. While listening to the song I was staring at the right side, casually keeping my left hand on my cheeks, trying to observe how the flow of the river decreased when the wind blew fast. Suddenly I saw one boat coming from fog and it was like
“Nothing is going in my life but one day one new message arrives in my life and changes my destination.”
Just like flashback, with all these thoughts I don’t know why I was smiling within myself only. However, for a moment I was thinking if I could go back to my past, I would make everything perfect but it’s good also because for that mistake only today I’m making the right decision. Whatever is happening now it’s not all my choice but the main thing is all about accepting the truth of my life.
Take a deep breath and talk to myself. Get tired of the crowd, get tired of answering all the questions. Just I want to sit with lots of silence and ready to hear someone’s story. One thing is that If I feel alone in a crowd then I will love to choose to spend most of my time alone only.
Few years back I used to wait a lot for someone or you can say maybe for my loved one to come and walk beside me. But slowly-slowly all these hopes disappear when I get to know no one will be there but one person will be there for sure who will love to spend time with me. Only need a little patience to wait for that person to come into my life.
Came back to reality!
I had to bring myself back to reality and think to get up now. It was not so late but around 7pm I thought about going back. Walking slowly but still wishing if I could hold that moment. I want to say so many things, why does time fly so fast? Found a place for me to talk with myself but will I come again on these busy days.
Well after a few steps I saw a bonfire, stood there and gave warmth to my hands and saw a few small children were enjoying that bonfire. Thought to have some tea but next time.
To be honest, I’m not happy to leave this place at least for now but I need to go.
I know this peace is for a few days or few hours but don’t want to think about this. Today for one thing I’m happy that I found a new place to explore myself. So many people have left behind but all these beautiful natures have never left me. Only they were there for me to create new hopes and dreams.
When people get to know your true color or if they don’t get that vibes to spend time with you, they mostly like to choose to break this friendship or relation. And at last, you can see sitting alone somewhere listening to music, like today I saw!
While finding a new place, I get afraid a lot and get so confused, whether I should go or not. But this self confidence we all need when we want to give some time to ourselves.
