sandcastle

Does it satisfy you?

does it fulfill you?

to see my light dim

to see my luster fade

when will you have enough?

Does it feel like a challenge conquered

to break me back into pieces, over again?

after I consumed all my strength to build them

after I lifted all the weight I don’t wanna carry

does it satisfy a goal in you?

does being shattered in the past permit you to hurt others?

or do you excuse yourself because every time you bite, I blame my own fangs

does it satisfy you?

does it fulfill you?

when will you have enough?

cut me into pieces then

burn my every bone

shatter every piece you can see

until you get satisfied

until you have enough

until you feel fulfilled.

And I will remember your name forever.

but no, I don’t wanna do that

I wanna forget you, every trace of you

or at least the memory of the pain that comes with you

erasing every line you have drawn

every scar you’ve decorated

but don’t worry

I still wanna end in peace

I will forgive, I know

I will look back in a good light, I hope

I will, and I’ll choose to

but by that time

your traces will no longer be visible

echoes of your name will not mean anything to me

you will not even be a dot in a life I’ll live

so no,

you cannot dim my light away

you cannot take my luster from me

you cannot turn me into chaos

I’ll decorate my world with every beautiful thing I can find

with every peace I can hoard

and I’ll be grateful to you

for the strength you allow me to build

for the resilience you uncovered

for letting me choose what I truly deserve

and still, I will wish you well.