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MOST DIFFICULT 2 MONTHS IN MY 21 YEAR LIFE : HOW I ABLE TO SURVIVE AND MY THOUGHTS

Today, I’m talking about my experience in most difficult time period of life. Purpose of writing this story is to express my inner thoughts and my emotions that I felt during past two months.

I’m 21 year old boy who currently pursuing my MBA and all difficulties are related to tradeoff between MBA and freedom of work I had before starting MBA.

After completing my 12th grade , I was lucky enough to get freelancing remote job in my town which paid me enough to cover my financial needs and also able to help my parents whenever they required financial support. During my Graduation, I did not take study seriously and with help of my job I became comfortable with earning which I had that time. Due to financial freedom, I was able to live my life however I want enjoying watching Anime, Travelling with friends, exploring new fields. Also I am very great full for job that able help me purchased one two wheeler vehicle, my person PC, new mobile and paid for my trips. Also during my 3rd of graduation, I was able to help my father’s medical operation.

All these are good part of my story but one thing that I never realized that I had become more and more dependent on my job and my comfort zone not able look in future aspects.

But everyone know that when God is on your side whenever any difficulties arrives solution also come with them. During final semester, I was able to find another job very comfortable when I required most and that also helped me to purchased AC ,Fridge and clear my parents OD.

After completing my Graduation , I started preparing for entrance exam for MBA but I never tried to look into colleges and their schedules and Fast phasing environment. Because I able to earn money and my life was progressing smoothly.

Same thing happen again when I required to earn more money I got job in stock broking firm as part-time customer support and back office executive. Above I didn’t mentioned that I also love to do trading. So again I able increase my income and everything was looking good.

Despite my work I was graduated in First class and in MBA entrance exam I got enough score to secure best public MBA college in my town.

But everything started fading away after my MBA course started. I never know that my MBA course timing was 8 to 10 hours a day.

First time I realized how am I going to maintain study and work life balance. But figure that I need quite my part time job in stock broking firm and I did. In second week I was told by my Freelancing work provider that they are moving to automation and they no need for my services second blow to my psychology and income.

After third week one after another expenses piles up like home related, medical and vehicle related. which made me realized that how feels when you are not earning money and expenses piles ups.

First No fixed schedule for study time in college , new expenses and due to full time MBA I was not able to join my friends on Goa trip in present time. Before that We all travel together and I had never miss any trip.

When I was adjusting my new life style I presented opportunity to run business where my father was working and that was always dream of me and my parents to start our own business. But I did not know what happen that time and we were not able grab golden opportunity.

That’s my story about how enjoying Four year dream comfortable life to transforming into hectic and fast phasing study life that feel like why I enrolled in this course.

I’m currently in same dilemma and wants some guidance to improve my thoughts, reduce my overthinking , stress and anxiety.