In Love With My Suffering

It is quite hard to tell whether you are in love with your suffering or not. Ending a relationship when things go a little downhill and convincing yourself that it was meant to be like this. Is that really healing or learning from your past lessons? or is it a coping mechanism for things not going your way. Maybe it is both, but it can heavily sabotage your current relationship. Maybe you have learned a lesson and maybe you don’t like it when things don’t go your way, because the last time you let things not going your way slide, you got hurt badly. But what to do now? Should you just end things and accept that you’re meant to be alone. Or should you be patient and give things time. Sure you can get hurt again, not absurd to think that but how many things left unread if you just run away. Maybe you need the closure to get something else. Maybe you need to get hurt for your own good. You can spend your life being in love with your suffering, accepting you’re meant to be sad and pitied or you can open yourself to experiences and find something only you can understand.