Nine — Labeeba Kinza

Dearest dear Friend,
You came into my life
once upon a time and left too quickly

That Friday afternoon,
I remember you came
U asked for an apology with ur little eyes
Those fourth-grade days,
You lil' book
Your little gift
Ur little pot
Your little letter
Your little label
Your little book

I still have it with me
I wish I spoke to u
I wish I would have hugged u tight
I wish u stayed longer

I wish I apologised too
I wish I thanked you a lottt!
U gave me a gift
I wish I thanked you for
U did leave
But that mistake,
I never made again
Alhamdulillah

U made me immune
to those broken promises

U made me learn what sympathy is

U made me learn how to have a big heart

even when u were just 9…
I never got out of missing u on every 1st December I lived after that

That photo — the only one we have together
I wish the next one comes through giggles in Italian as we gave each other our word after 9 years.

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Ofc Change cannot come tmrw

Ik I have to finish school in this ruins of the system unless something verrrrrry verrrrrry spontaneous happens and all the aspirants get a medium to fail safely

Even at home, it is expected to get good *marks* , even when the sale of plates is still in the process

And by the time things will actually change, our childhood curiosity would have been dead..

Now, evn we r a part of this system.. inside it.. evn after seeing it from above, the inside cannot do much unless one person sitting on the top takes action.. and actually gives us a successful Independence Day

Each msg I sent to many ppl, HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY, it hit hard and poked twice, first, I'm a part of it, next — ik this is the problem, I have written it as well , but until something happens, I will still be in the ruins of the system..

The blog I wrote last yr in pain hardly even got read..

Many publications didn’t post it bcz I had already published it...

It hurts still hurts.. even after I did make the effort come on paper, here screens.. my voice never made it.. I’m here, ready to answer ur qs.. if any interpretation r not understood, I’m there to answer.. all u have to do is to ask..

I also want to confess… I’m not only defined by the tag of a student of my school.. I am a YouTuber, a blogger, a writer, Alhamdulillah

I love doing many things other than studying school stuff.. I’m not only this much.. in fact all the time I spend at home after school, goes in question— will I ever top?? Every line I write has 3 meanings

• Literal meaning from ur side
• Metaphorical meaning from ur side
• and finally, From my POV, where both of urs come along on the same screen, along with the emotion I wrote with

a note to my publisher

pls let my short forms be raw, that’s my style, that’s how I want to connect, that’s how I want my readers to read it ...

Read “Is This Really Education — or Just a Cycle We’re Trapped In?“ by LabeebaKinza on Medium

Is This Really Education — or Just a Cycle We’re Trapped In?

What We Call Overthinking

This is my trial to write an article, dear readers.

I hope my blogging style of informality takes a lil’ shift towards a more positive aspect of the format.

• Key
• Bold
• Strikethrough (trying to avoid blog style)

Start ⏬

What We Call Overthinking

People mostly think that thinking beyond a limit that they have set for themselves is called OVERTHINKING.

But we are all aware of the saying — “what you sow is what u reap.”

In a similar way, what we repeatedly think, experience, or tell ourselves can influence the way our brain works and the way we behave.

This idea can be compared with some simple psychological terms — neuroplasticity, the placebo effect, and labelling theory.

The Worn-Out Path: Neuroplasticity

Neural pathways and networks are built when u walk on the same route repeatedly, just like the paths created in grasslands due to continuous usage.

One may also compare this scenario with trying to cut a stone with a rope by repeatedly rubbing the rope against the stone. With time, the stone begins to wear down, and eventually, the task is achieved.

This is somewhat similar to how neuroplasticity works.

The brain has the ability to form and strengthen connections based on our repeated thoughts, behaviours, and experiences.

So, just as a path in the grass becomes clearer the more we walk on it, a particular pattern in our brain can become stronger the more we repeat it.

Your Brain Learns By Association: The Placebo Effect

The placebo effect is also somewhat similar to neuroplasticity.

Here, u find that the brain can connect an action, experience, or feeling with a particular expectation or association. This association can be verbal, visual, virtual, or physical.

You can understand the idea of association through the famous Bell-Dog experiment.

Each time the dog was given food, a bell was rung in the background. Initially, the dog did not pay attention to the sound. But after the bell was repeatedly paired with food, the dog began to associate the sound with the food.

Eventually, even when the food wasn’t served, the ringing of the bell could make the dog salivate.

Idk why my mouth is watering too… 😭

Now, technically, Pavlov’s Bell-Dog experiment is classical conditioning, not the placebo effect.

But I included it because everything can be viewed from a different POV.

Both concepts involve the brain forming associations, although they work differently:

• Classical Conditioning = bell → food → saliva. Learned association.
• Placebo Effect = “This pill will cure me” → expectation/belief → a real change in experience.

So, the Bell-Dog experiment works perfectly here to explain the idea of association.

In a way, repeated experiences can create a pathway in the brain — a connection between something we experience and the feeling or response that follows.

The Label We Stick: Labelling Theory

Labelling theory, as the name suggests, talks about what can happen when a person is given a particular label or title.

For example, when a child is repeatedly called a “weak student,” the label may begin to affect the way the child sees themselves and behaves.

This is clearly understood through an example I had previously mentioned in my blog: Is This Really Education, or Just a Cycle We’re Trapped In?.

Here, when a teacher repeatedly uses words associated with a “weak” child — {there r no bad students, only __ teachers} — the child may feel awful all day, or may eventually begin to work and think in the manner expected from them.

The child may be filled with immense potential, but the label can overshadow it.

The child may either forget their identity of being capable of doing better or stop trying enough because, no matter what they do, the first criteria used to rename or re-label the child is often MARKS.

And then come things like answering questions and asking doubts.

(Yes, doubts are encouraged these days. Correct me if I’m wrong..)

But what if the child simply isn’t comfortable with the speed of teaching?

What if they understand things differently?

What if they aren’t comfortable speaking aloud?

Wait, a dog just barked aloud. 😭

This is another topic.

Insha Allah, we’ll try it next time.

So, Is This Overthinking?

Hence, our mind can be trained.

Thinking, questioning, analysing, and solving situations are all things our brain can learn and improve through practice.

And this is not necessarily OVERTHINKING!

Overthinking is not simply about thinking a lot.

Sometimes, thinking helps us understand.

Sometimes, thinking helps us solve problems.

Sometimes, thinking helps us learn.

The question is perhaps not “How much am I thinking?” but rather:

“What is my thinking doing to me?”

Is it helping me solve something?

Or am I simply going around in circles?

And if the mind can be trained, then perhaps we can also train it towards healthier and more productive patterns.

So…

This is not OVERTHINKING!

Alhamdulillah, U are safe.. 😭

Hope my article cum blog works.

Only that I realised midway that an article is NOT supposed to be in first- and second-person POV…

But then again, this is my trial.

So, let’s see where this goes.

7 August 2026

Friday

Alhamdulillah

AI on Psychological Terms

Here are the 3 terms in a simple, proper psychological way:

1. Neuroplasticity

The brain’s ability to reorganise itself by forming new neural connections throughout life.

When we repeat a thought, behaviour, or experience, the neural pathway associated with it can become stronger — like a path in grass that becomes clearer the more we walk on it.

Grass path + stone/rope example: That’s exactly it.

2. Placebo Effect

A psychological effect where a person experiences real changes in their thoughts, feelings, or body because they believe something will help, even if the thing itself has no active therapeutic effect.

It is the power of expectation and belief shaping our experience.

Pavlov’s Bell-Dog experiment is technically called Classical Conditioning, not placebo.

(But I wrote it bcz everything can be viewed from a different POV..)

But here’s the link:

Both involve the idea of association, although they are not the same thing.

• Classical Conditioning = bell → food → saliva. Learned association.
• Placebo Effect = “This pill will cure me” → belief/expectation → real effect on experience.

So, the example works perfectly to explain association.

“This is similar to how our expectations can create real effects — like in the placebo effect.”

Technically, this is classical conditioning, which shows how our brain forms associations through repetition — somewhat similar to how the placebo effect works through belief and expectation.

3. Labelling Theory

A theory that states that when a person is given a label — “weak student”, “troublemaker”, “genius” — they may begin to see themselves through that label and act according to the expectations attached to it.

The label can influence identity, behaviour, and the way others treat that person.

Teacher + child example = spot on.

“There are no bad students, only bad teachers” — that whole paragraph is labelling theory in action.

Is This Really Education — or Just a Cycle We’re Trapped In?

Your Mind is not Your enemy: This is *NOT* Overthinking! was originally published in Direction on Medium, where people are continuing the conversation by highlighting and responding to this story.

Advices we receive,
Every time we stand at the tip of choosing — What’s next?

Parents, friends, relatives, society 
 — All wanted to be a part of the answer to the question 
 — What’s next?

A point in time,
When the time came for me to choose — 
What career I wished to take?

Commerce, arts, but not Science
Were the choices of others
You'll play safe if for Arts and Commerce

But Alhamdulillah
I was sure — Science was mine!
My path to take
My councellor told me Commerce is my route

Public Relations whatever would be my perfect shoot

[PS. If this shoot ever rised]

But I?
I chose Science, bcz it always fascinated me

I wanted to know how

Curiosity embedded in me

if for Arts — maybe I could watch infotainment on social media

Commerce — ok, ok .. but I don’t want to sit in a money minded place

Science — sigma bond , i.e., strong bond All I wanted to make..

All of what Allah made directly

Laws of Physics, Chemical combinations, compounds, all not derivatives made by humans, but by His Highness -The Great! Subhanallah

To know more about the wonders and exquisiteness of His Creations

Advice I’m Glad I Ignored ..

Though I stand behind this day, or wherever
I still cannot bear
Seeing me with Commerce or Arts, this was something I couldn’t wear!

I chose it,
Or Almighty made paths for me

For it wouldn't have been for Science,
I wouldn't have looked towards Medium

I cannot imagine my life in that point in time
If I chose Arts or so
My regret of not choosing Science might have not even been a bit of low..

My passion for writing
Alhamdulillah
Would be never spurted out of me never never..

It would be never but not again..

Thank you Quirky Rants✨

I had been thinking a lot, but Alhamdulillah, when I stood to write..
It came out of me
Advice I’m Glad I Ignored

Read The Choice if u’re stuck

The Choice - Poem by Labeeba Kinza

Read — What’s holding u back and what u can do.. Naturally, Insha Allah.

Read - What's holding u back and what u can do.. Naturally , Insha Allah.

This piece is written for Quirky Rants’ writing challenge — “Advice I’m Glad I Ignored”. We all have that one moment where fear was loud, but our inner voice was louder. Because sometimes the best thing you can do for your future is disappoint a few expectations. If you’ve lived that moment, tell the story your courage wrote.

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— In there..

Hey u in there,
I love u no matter what.
Ik the pain and the promises we broke,
And the days that went in vain.

Was that time just enough,
To break me into shatters?
Was that negligence enough,
To reassure if the trust was correct in there?
Were those people enough,
Was that silence so heavy, to keep doubts away?
Was that device just enough,

to cover the wounds in there?

The thousands of cuts,
that came to me,
Today, idk where—
Where there’s a place where there’s no scratch in there..

Maybe words aren’t enough,
or just that the time isn’t safe,
The question was— How to prepare?
The level of competition, comparison, and lack of completion just put me drowned in there

The pain is vivid, vital indeed!
The wounds uncovered,
living in doubts and despair..
Maybe I’m looking for a rhyming scheme,
To match out words or to hide the reality..
But the truth — the pain’s still in there.. no matter what!

The will to grow,
The will to pass,
To get away from where I am today ..

To search for it,
To make to grow,
To make the pain stay back,
Just so that I can learn to outgrow from it..

My words' origin from multiple writers,
But the source of pain, yet the same

Of addiction
Of mindlessness
Of hatred
And unkept promises

I write with grudge
Grudge for myself
And others who didn’t help me there
But others must have had their reasons,
While I had mine to hide.

The pain spread throughout
Waiting to scream out ahead

The impatient patience,
The want to get that phase finished,
To start yet early again!

We blame others and ourselves too
Walking on endless roads
Putting work maybe in the wrong direction

But the question was never — why me?
It was always — How?

How shall I be better?
How shall I proceed?
How shall I begin again?
No answers, only open-ended questions filled in the air!!

Not to copy, bcz u’ll never learn
But learn from ur own experiences no matter what or how many warnings u get..

Bcz we learn by doing, by just experiencing all once again.

Maybe, that was all I wanted to say—
That I’ve many many open ended questions building up just right in there..

Inspired by:

Nyx Tesla

SS Writes...

Nefertiti.co

These writers have some words or phrases that got me thinking, inspired me and literally once again— got me thinking! I had to rephrase many things in my head bcz of these insightful POVs.

Thankyou all once again!

And it’s named Phase 2 bcz, previously:

• Nyx Tesla had written about Phase 1, but with a different name — All I See . Epic! It’s about being broken, and a complete negative sense of self doubt, but that was just the first phase of beginning once again!
• SS Writes... illustrated about The Fire🔥 of Will, that willing is utmost important— it’s the first step 🪜 to anything we do..
• Nefertiti.co expressed My 5 years of Trauma .. this writing felt so relatable about never feeling more happier than ever before.. even while the situations seemed like everything is not 'my' way, positivity still finds a way in these shadows of negativity..

Read them here

• All I See
• The Fire🔥 of Will
• My 5 Years of Trauma

If u want to know how music effects affect ur life, in a way u might have never thought and taught of, click the link below and read - bcz this might make u think of what u’re doing with urself is literally considerate or not..

You might actually need this ⬇️
it might even give u "EXTRA" time to spend thinking properly without getting externally influenced by others.. and their thoughts..

When Music Holds the Reins — Who’s Really in Control?

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Alhamdulillah for Everything bcz Whatever happens is for good…

Jazakallahu Khairan Kaseera

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Imagine some one actually exists who knows what we thinking & why, what if.
• what u thought a second ago
• which cell in ur body got mitosis processed
• which hair strand is white
• knows this information of every single person who had lived, is living, or just dead right now, or who just is gonna born a million century later.
• How much marks u got, what abt ur ancestors, ur next gen Insha Allah? & other people ( All People dead, alive) or if they ever saw whatever at a single point in time.
• knows every single thing about us, and other things that don’t match for u.
• your likes, dislikes, neutrality, and of other People. Besides this, knowing about every dinosaur and the number of bones, their cell tissues, how each dinosaur is different from each other, & so simply how the nucleus of this cell is different from other, imagine every single cell, then more zoom out would be nucleus, then chromatin threads (length also) chromosomes, every info that each of 23 pairs carry, and which one of them made u?
• He’s a psychologist, engineer, doctor, healer, future, present awarer, past professor, teacher, secret keeper, a lover ♥️ of all the million people & loves everyone & attention giver to each and every person & animal by even keeping all their records.

​• The controller of winds —which was of past, which bought a tsunami, or made a loose coconut fall on sea shore, or which one gets a smile on your face.
• The commander of everything - Kun! ho jaao to ho jata hai

"Be! and it is."

The Arabic phrase is "Kun fayakun" (كُنْ فَيَكُونُ)*.

You can find it in several places in the Quran, for example:

That’s why I say - Everything u imagine is real!
Ask Allah, he knows it before u even had ur 1st chromosome building with proteins, etc. (I’m not a bio stream student).
• You 'cannot' literally CANNOT COMPARE anyone with Him, he’s just 'PERFECT’.
• You must have heard - No one is perfect, wait He is!
• Hmm, in English Grammar - superlative degrees, hope you know it, Good - Better - Best?
Good is okay fine, better is comparing, 'Best’? Nah - No comparison at all! He’s just the Best, no one to even participate on the track, he’s already had records— records no human has ever known about yet, or u simply don’t and cannot compete with him, THAT’S ALL.
• We speak of manifestation, but let’s look at it spiritually - You want something dearly, you ask Him, you beg for it, work hard & smartly for it, and then you get it, and if you don’t He’s got —better? No No, The BEST PLAN for you!

After all he knows everything about what u actually get triggered from, ur imagination of the shape of an apple, a green leaf’s green colour density, intensity, EVERY SINGLE THING! And He is closer to you than ur jugular vein.

​My pen’s ink will get over, pages will get finished,my hand’s aching, my sweat might turn to tears then into streams of blood, every vein dry, or every cell on the job to tell abt him, Aha! I would be idk what! Still I would have hardly explained a teeny-tiny bit about Him!

All praise to him for the breath u just took! Bcz someone out there never got another second either!

Be grateful to Him, he’s given u another chance, and he can take it away too! Bcz in this case (not humanly) he’s the source of everything & gives u from His treasures that never end.

"Sacrifice this Dunya" is not what he asks of us completely, Deen is the main part, Dunya is a subset of Deen.
(whatever good deed we perform is Ibadah, it’s what gives a true meaning to life.)

Praying is not the only means to contribute to ur Deen, avoiding a wrong thing, or not taking a bad action, even when you could have done it, enjoyed it - is something He loves!

Even caring for urself and taking care of His creations is a deed!

If u think of a bad thing & keep away from it for 6 hrs, it will be added in the book of good deeds the angels on ur right is writing!
If u then ‘think’, yes of doing good, its added!

See, How Islam is made easy for us!
He doesn’t need u at all, we need Him, He’s the provider of the breath, the life and everything!

​Getting closer to Him is getting to know more abt urself - ur potentials, ur preferences, ur mindset, ur choices, ur psychology.
Bcz we learn to be calm!

Yes Read it again, put this on your wallpaper, always remember Him!
• Bcz He's forgiving, loving, everything!
• Fear Him bcz He's watching always
• But he never exposes, or announces ur mistakes, he waits for ur return, He's the most patient, most forgiving
• ask Him, and Tawakkul (Believe in his oneness).

•Quran (3:159):* "...And when you have decided, then rely upon Allah. Indeed, Allah loves those who rely [upon Him]."

• Hadith: The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) was once asked, "O Messenger of Allah! Shall I tie it (my camel) and rely (upon Allah), or leave it loose and rely (upon Allah)?" He said: "Tie it and rely (upon Allah)."

He doesn’t want anything for Himself

Reading Namaz — You will get clarity.

Talking to Him — You will get peace.

Doing good deeds — You will have a meaningful life.

Jannah is also for You !

Insha Allah ♥️

Allahu Akbar ♥️♾️

Subhanallah ♥️

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When Music Holds the Reins — Who’s Really in Control?

Jazakallahu Khairan Kaseera ♥️

ٱللَّٰه ٱللَّٰه ٱللَّٰه ٱللَّٰه ♥️×♾️ Guess what He also knows the value of infinity! was originally published in Intellectual Islam on Medium, where people are continuing the conversation by highlighting and responding to this story.

How I wondered what people thought when something happened
When they made a mistake or just did something unknowingly, common things include, standing on one leg like a flamingo, or bringing ur tongue out while doing something of completely of ur interest or making hand movements while speaking on the phone, even when uk that the person cannot see ur actions

About what ppl actually want and what they're running behind
Or just about how our mind runs under pressure and finishes a yr's syllabus just one night before the exam, that too with satisfaction!

It's confusing indeed to know what is behind those eyes, what the mind is constantly thinking about

About why we make mistakes, even when we're aware of the consequences, with all our presence of mind

It's confusing to find out what u actually think about the person in front of u, or is it their physical presence the point, because no one else is there to support u that way, and u go on letting them disrespect u, despite self-respect being the first priority.

About how a teacher can actually get the student to be better by just using the 'Labelling Theory ' or by killing their confidence by asking - u're done? for empathy, just showing it in this poking way that u're there to support us bcz u're weak? and focusing on the students who tell the answer in class, or say it's clear, because they had already learnt it in coaching classes? Thinking -ok, they understand..

About thinking— because they didn’t fulfill the word they gave to you, doesn’t mean they don’t care always, there r other priorities in life .. or they’re just "using" you..

All of this is confusing, answers constantly differing for each person because each one of us is 'uniquely unique' Alhamdulillah..

About how we run after motivation that is temporary and not behind even thinking to have a rise in thought to become disciplined and determined

See, my point is simple,
First, thank Almighty that u're living, while someone or many just took their last breath —Alhamdulillah

Second, before running behind others just because they look or have a better portfolio than urs, is simply not being considerate.
You're comparing ur "Behind The Scenes" with their "Presentation" in front of the world!
Stop thinking about how they'll feel having u in their life!

Think about this— Do u even want to spend a second with urself, away from music, social media, gossips, back biting, discussion, blah blah blah..?
With the person you are "now"??

You think of starting this, accomplishing that, doing something big in life, but do u even have the guarantee of living the next second?

God forbid —Ur phone might blast bcz u’re continuously on it, charging and heavily burdening it..
Or u might slip off while trying to get up from bed, after a long lasting lazy, and procrastinating day..
Or if u thought of bathing after a fortnight and turned on the geyser and got stuck on ur phone, scrolling "just" until the water got hotter, even after uk very well urself that u hardly remember what u saw in ur last visit to social media "just" a min ago.. or uk u might forget about the bubbling water - DHAMAKA!
Anything can happen the very "next" second, and u’re still soaring— I’ll do it tomorrow!

This time, atleast "now" Spend time with urself, understanding the real YOU— figuring out what u actually want, are doing, whether it's correct or not or are u stuck in the rat race—only doing it bcz everyone's on unto it..

Take a pause and give urself time to think!

Because this is love —The Love I Never Spoke Out Loud.
About the love that makes u better, and u get to learn about utilising our potential and finding out the right fuel that fuels u to reach more than ur limits u set
Because— the only limits are those which u limit urself too
Don’t limit ur challenges, just challenge ur limits.

You might actually need this ⬇️
It might even give u "EXTRA" time to spend thinking properly without getting externally influenced by others and their thoughts.

If u want to know how music effects affect ur life, in a way u might have never thought of or considered, click the link below and read - because this might make u think of what you're doing with urself is literally considerate or not.

When Music Holds the Reins — Who’s Really in Control?

Tagging Harleen Kaur and Rishita Sharma💗

Want to know more about LABELLING THEORY? Read here.

This piece is written for Quirky Rants’ February Writing Challenge — The Love I Never Spoke Out Loud. Write the story your heart protected for so long, the one that lived in pauses, glances, almost-moments, and unsent words. If this prompt stirred something within you, don’t let it fade back into silence. Write it now.

The Love I Never Spoke Out Loud: A February Writing Challenge

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How I miss you oh dear little cat
Slept in my home 3 hours at a time
The day u came for the first time in June,2024

And how u waited when we were out...

The day you gave 4 kittens— a medium to their life
It was the most exciting for me,
But painful for you!
You didn't get up until they were asleep
Didn't hunt for food or
do anything else at all
Provided them warmth and licked them all along
And then finally took them away, and they never returned
They were k*lled by the other cats, maybe thinking they were rats
My father felt heart broken utmost

The day you bought your kittens once again,
one of them in your mouth
To the horror of my mother, you screamed to the door to be opened, early morning about six…

PS: My parents couldn't wake me up for school, but you did it at once!

As soon as it opened, you brought her in,
placed her under the bed,
took my father to the terrace, thrice, up and down to save your kids from suffice

Before you became a medium, you came to my room,
looking for places to bring your children safe
It was funny to find you willing to even look up the cupboard and the shelf!

Then I gave you the casket,
and out were my books!
Me and my brother played your with kids for some days

Named them Lulu, Hamza, Hiba and Layl
Their tails in the perfect proportion - 2 black and 2 peach
Layl as his name suggests - night — dark—🌑 — 3 spots
And his heads design utmost similar to yours!

Oh! How I remember u and Layl nap together, only his head visible, he looked like your blueprint!

Lulu screamed when she saw me getting a bowl
No matter what was inside, you could listen a howl!
Not meow - eeow said she
You let her drink from your bowl then on
Your love let you forget the thirst
You forgot everything for the sake of them
When they were asleep you came close to my father and went back if you heard a tweek

We took your children up to the terrace for some sunlight
You couldn't bare them to be out and said meow all the time
When we went back you ran along, through the stairs
And this time you went to your burrow from below the bed

As your children grew older
And we played with them on the bed, and got your home shifted to the hall,
You took Lulu in your mouth to put them back under the bed
Then your kids ran under the sofa, ur paws hunting for them, they playing with you, was our day, just amazing..!

So playful were they and you- their mother, caught them softly and licked them to the end..

They grew more older, they had their own bowls..

There were 5 cats, right in my house!

Oh dear cat, you couldn’t stay in our home for long..
We left u and Lulu for your freedom out in a shed.

We saw you recognised us,
but Lulu refused to do it to me
I was broken, but you taught her well, to not mingle with strangers until they were safe
We bought bread for you and you ate.. and Lulu still with her eeow was still there !

Now, we had 3 cats
And Hiba was out
So, Layl and Hamza were left

Then Lulu was gone and you had 4 more
The people near your shed took you along

You were under their bed and we asked if we could see you..
I saw you through the hole.. how much you loved your other 4...

Then in May 2025 I came to see you with my father and brother

I came on Tuesday and you were dead on Monday.. because of a dog..
We cried.
We loved you.
You loved us..
You died with some more they say...
They buried you
and I never saw you alive again, except for in dreams and nightmares and photos and videos!

You never hurt me, except for once, because I had your food in my hand
But I knew you had ur reasons..

I miss you..
Later, after months, Layl bit my father badly
He got vaccines 14 or so..
He was left in the shed the next day itself
How I loved him, cause he responded
I told him "Bye Bye" and he left his bowl to just look at me..

Both together,
Layl played with Hamza by biting him off
Hamza screamed with all his sound
Layl's eyes, just like yours, green with black iris...

I cried, because I was right in the hall,
It was just away a wall
and my father took him away...

Oh yes— the sock!
Lulu's size, so we put her there
U went out for a stroll
We got your daughter dressed, among her brothers right in there..
Then she got beatings tight, of her brothers' paws...
Hamza sat on hinds that day!

You were forbidden to enter the other room, and there you sat on the blanket, yewwww!
Why in that room! And that too on the blanket???

The fight, I remember, of Layl and Hamza, stuck in between was bechara(poor) Hiba...
Oh my that fight!
Layl didn't want to even look at Hamza..
Hamza didn't dare to even stare at Layl,
Once again, poor Hiba stuck in the middle!

U wouldn't believe how much your children ate our head!
Hamza had learnt to scream - Waaa, Waaa, Waaa
Layl stayed on with your Meow
Oh no, you said Mae-ow
Hiba said - Wee-ow

I'm not joking, it's true!

How both Layl and Hamza recognised the voice of their food getting mixed in the jar
If any other frequency, they wouldn't care...
And how they ate- their noses! Ha, ha!

Then 2 weeks later went on Hamza, bcz of his screams, leaving out home— the family forever!

None of your family stays now
Hamza took away a piece of my heart...
Saw your empty home, but maybe had a glimpse of Hamza in the night outdoor.. however he was gone never to be seen again... except for the photos and videos we took for fun,
never expected that the number of cats at our home would be none....

Even taking ur name - etches my heart
Why on Earth did you take your depart?

You surely taught me - love
To be loved and to love...

Alhamdulillah(All praise to Almighty ♥️ for Everything) because Whatever happens is for good!

Because — I learnt to grow from this heartbreak 💔! the way she loved them and they did to her,

I learnt that life’s end is death.. though it is hard and harsh, it’s still the truth!

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When Will the True-Truth Finally Rain on Education?

1. The Endless Cycle
The whole world around us(INDIANS) believe the way of education is what we all know is what we need to do and it is the right way to do it…
Though people have realised it, idk what the government is doing.. Why can’t they still get updated ? Why do we need to work math questions when we have calculators (not blaming)I don’t want us to rely on tech completely, but why is everything the same?(“We’re told practicing math makes our brains sharper, and maybe that’s true — but sometimes we also wonder, are we just repeating calculations for the sake of it, instead of learning how to think creatively?” Practice is useful,but it shouldn’t replace creativity and real-life connection.)

2. Whole Holes in the System

Why are there still three streams after 10th grade in India? Why can't physical education and computer science be combined at once! Why do we have to fill records if we haven't experimented? Why did they not make us practice salt analysis without the sheet(where the inference is written already), the mixing in SM flask(titration), why did we have to learn it from the procedure book when we learnt for exam, even the practicals were done but if you didn't get any much explanation for it, why were the no videos from school itself?

Why do they assume we know the basics already? Why can’t that extra effort not come from school itself? What if the child made a mistake in choosing the stream, what if it was forced on him (cz it was ideality)? What if the subjects aren’t combined and dis-tributed properly, what if there was another way? Why is everyone taught at the same speed if their attention spans, learning styles and understanding levels are different, cz we have different observation skills, different experiences and everything is different - parents, family, group of talkers to, home, neighbours,minds,brains and everything!
I know it will take a lot of investigation and studies, but once done is all done, right? Ek bar mein khatm hogaya toh, phir change krne ki zarurat nahi rhti, amendments enough new things occur as done in constitution! How much evidence is required that we need, we really need a change! Ha?

3. Questions That Never Get Answered

Why are people creating distractive apps even after they know their own families can get/already have issues(addiction)? Shouldn't we all 'TOGETHER' be working towards making life better, rather than ruining it?

If the government took the initiative to block them(apps) off properly,see the world, it will change for the better, that is what I learnt in grade 9 or 10 about that - Development is the betterment of anything.

Why would we need app blockers, or even have scrolling addicts in the world if it was blocked? That( no scrolling addicts) is what we need for focus in our world presently,right? Then why do we have blockage here? Why water issues and blockages there? (I mean why can’t they block the apps which are distractive, rather than having people facing the problem of water blockages)

Why would we need app blockers, or even have scrolling addicts in the world if it was blocked. That( no scrolling addicts) is what we need for focus in our world presently,right? Then why do we have blockage here? Why water issues and blockages there? (I mean why can't the block the apps which are distractive, rather than having people facing the problem of water blockages)

Why do “SOME” teachers not focus on students who struggle more, if these are the criterias you think are right? Why are Government schools treated as if they’re only for children from weaker backgrounds? Why is education the most high-fi fee to be paid for? Why do we need 6 to 14 years of compulsory education, if that is not enough to live properly in this (competitive, expensive) world? Why is the criteria of COMPARING there if it is wrong to perform? It wouldn’t occur if society wasn’t like that, right?

4. The Role of Society & Technology and Teachers
Labs (there are no labs in some schools also, or there are labs but the school doesn’t use them because schools don’t want to waste their resources, or they don’t have expert resources, i.e., TEACHERS to make use of the lab) should allow students to find out themselves what will happen. DANGEROUS combinations should be restricted, and AI videos would be enough to know it(DANGEROUS combinations) along with teachers, to increase the curiosity and critical thinking of the students!(Why? Because labs are meant to spark curiosity first — the deeper thinking follows after.)

Why students in schools don’t use phones for learning? If distracting apps could simply be blocked, wouldn’t? (I mean, if the government had really taken the initiative to block those apps properly, then phones could actually be used in class for learning — that would happen if the initiative was successful)

Why are there tuition centres there? Then what is a school for? Parents pay more for tuition and school to find their child unhappy with that life (forced or simply accepted because that is supposed to be THE FAKETRUTH(the word FAKE is more dominating, I would say so for better understanding)) because he/she did not perform well in school. Why regret??

Are schools so dumb that we need tuitions to bring colour to school life?

Brain rot would never occur if rotten apps were not created itself! Aren’t app builders parents, too? Or some other day Indian households will have a builders (one or the other day technology will be so high that coders will be filled around the world. Indian households because they have faced the situations - of trouble, of addiction,of dissatisfaction).

# I hope you all understand the thing about brackets below…u cld read it here"⬇️”in the latter paragraph

The true taste will come on tongues and no medicine will be enough to cure the bitterness, and no saliva will be enough to spit the harshality(""situations - of trouble, of addiction,of unsatisfaction"")out of the mouths ...(I mean it will be already late when the bitterness(""situations - of trouble, of addiction,of unsatisfaction"") would have ruined the taste buds) !!!

here⬇️
“The true taste will eventually reach our tongues. By then, no medicine will be enough to cure the bitterness, and no saliva will be enough to spit out the harshness of life — the troubles, the addictions, the endless dissatisfaction. It will already be too late, because the bitterness would have ruined the very taste buds meant to enjoy sweetness.”
“By the time bitterness reaches the tongue, it will already be too late — the taste buds of life would have forgotten sweetness.”

5. Fear Instead of Curiosity

Children in school always question- 'why are we taught this if I won’t use it in my future?’Why can’t this question be clearly cleared in schools? Aren’t schools the places where doubts are cleared, beautiful futures are outlined, to make Life Carefree (money no tension (not only money other things also, but many children think that is only thing they need to be satisfied, (why is it not cleared properly(education is only for that age group of 6 – 14, out of which many of them don’t attend school also, where will they get to know??, how will they be able to taste the real truth other than facing the bitterness?))))

#the brackets, ik, I’m working on it!!
Why do we hear that curiosity is the highest in a little kid and dies after 6–7 years (or at least turns out to be lesser)? What DID happen that the questions died before they even took birth or saw the world?Is it the way our education system works — where instead of feeding curiosity, it slowly starves it?”

[Studies show that curiosity is highest between ages 2 and 5 — that’s when kids keep asking “Why? Why? Why?” about everything.

After about age 6–7, when formal schooling starts, the number of spontaneous questions children ask drops sharply.]

Schooling often shifts focus from exploration to memorization.

(Social pressure, shyness, or fear of being wrong also reduce questions.) I am totally against these lines, if the society wasn’t built in this way at all, then from where will words like “social pressure" arise out of nowhere…

If this system of education is correct, then why are there the biggest WHOLE- HOLES found right in the FALSETRUTHs ?

If these rebuttals poke up hard, what is the correct way then? How much more time will it take to get the true truth out of the bittered mouth, at least spit it off so that the world can see it !(I mean - when will the TRUE-TRUTH will come out? )

Meditation, Time Management, blah blah blah, all help you to get a good life! Which fool said life is bad? ‘PEOPLE’ is (using ‘is’, cz in this cases people act as one and think like each other though it is not required at all, it seems as if it is forced on them or they are simply forcing themselves to agree)the ones who substitute good with bad, making stupid false truths and fake realities! If social media is not social and cannot make a person feel connected (like how friends are meant to be, that they grow and make their peers to grow with them as well) and make us grow?

Meditation is important, why can't they allow the child to face the calmness and true trust in whom trust and health can be inferred (extracted from whom we can rely on (teachers and other staff members)) ! Why tension?

Why does the kid hesitate to question ? Because the society feels it is SHYNESS that stops the kid, PEER PRESSURE, what are these words, are they meant to be created if trust was there??

Is this life? You go to school, not go home, go to coaching, go home to study, sleep or not sleep, go to school!

Leave this, add hobbies also, then also is this a child's life?

Leave, add playing also, is this a child's life?

Leave, add walking, exercising, yoga, etc, is this life of a child?

What about CURIOSITY? Murd*red it, no it was a su*cide (the child killed it himself because it meant meaning less to ask questions because it felt dumb in this society)

Words like theft, murd*r, su*cide are known to kids even before they are made aware about it?(You know it yourself that it is the truth, through media (scrolling) children just know so many things..this AWARENESS causes Normalization of harmful behavior & Stifling curiosity or self-expression).

Why does it even have to exist if the k*ller was taught well in childhood, educated, and all that... No wonder how many lives would have been saved!

Why depression? why suppression? why introvert? why extrovert? You might think that people are unique, that's why... But is that how you classify a person, the question of trust arises... (Trust on whom you can rely on, probably in school or from where you learn...)

Children get to know about music which is so dumb and meaningless that their mind is clogged up. They know about content which is not age-appropriate (and honestly, even if it is “age-appropriate,” much of it is still not good for any person of any age group, because all it brings is stupidity, obsession, and wasted time). Add to this the endless reels and shorts — 30 seconds of fake entertainment that train the brain to never sit patiently. Add the gaming craze — children spend hours building virtual scores while their real studies and real lives collapse. And in this rush of meaningless content, what happens? Curiosity is forgotten.

Very few children might actually want to check social media to find out something useful — like what happens in a science experiment — instead of just scrolling. (For example, practical exams: schools rarely provide proper videos themselves, and when SOME do, it feels like they only uploaded them for views and popularity, not for students to really learn, mostly.) But is this what it is meant to be? Shouldn’t technology be used to feed curiosity, not to k*ll it?

Technology was meant to open minds, but instead it is closing them.

Screens were supposed to be windows of knowledge, but they became walls against curiosity.

The real exam today is not in school halls, but in how we fight against this digital addiction.

We lost curiosity not because children stopped asking, but because the world gave them noise instead of answers.

Why are kids afraid to go to school? Why the refusal? Why that stubbornness? why that zidd? Of course, school is not going to k*ll the child. But if there is no threat to life, then why is the child so afraid to face teachers — teachers who once sat in the same classrooms as students themselves?

Why didn’t those teachers decide to bring a change in the way they were taught? Did they choose this profession out of passion, or were they forced into it? Was it only for money? Or for the “no work, easy pension” mindset we hear about in some Government schools?

(Not blaming every teacher — but still, there is a loophole, and in the MAJORITY it cannot be denied.)
And MAJORITY, you know, is what we see in the big picture. But that is exactly the problem: people see the big picture, not the little steps that built it. Many great people died without their small efforts ever being recognised.

A system that ignores the little details will never fix the big picture. And maybe even my point about teachers is also painted from the big picture — but that’s what the world shows us. If the world keeps showing the same picture again and again, then how long can we stay silent about it?

I don’t mean to point at every teacher — I know there are amazing ones who change lives. But when the system itself keeps repeating the same problems, then speaking up is not disrespect, it’s honesty.

When will WE, as The Society, draw the line where this unmeaningfulness will finally end??? When will the scarcity of WILL get fulfilled by rain of TRUE-TRUTH???

I really don’t want to blame the teachers who literally put their 100% effort into…

The reason I wrote GOVERNMENT is because idk who else can give us an answer.. I have been living in this society since I was born … in the same society where we are taught , by the talking of people, “””GOVERNMENT did not do this GOVERNMENT did not do that, all blame to government”””

The government may be taking steps toward improving education, but these efforts often remain hidden, partially implemented, or unclear. Good policies alone aren’t enough — awareness, clarity, and follow-through (PROPER IMPLEMENTATIONS)are what make real change possible.”

“The Education System should not be a cycle of repetition and suppression. It should be the soil where curiosity grows, where children dare to ask, explore, and fail safely. Until then, every child’s question that dies in silence is a lost opportunity for a better world.”

The problem isn’t about Education after all.. It is about the People who r running it…

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Always irritated, chich chide, intolerant with jokes.. fed up of ppl poking around their to-dos - wake up, phone, tv, eat with tv, drink with YT, playing = scrolling..

And by chance u become a disruption to their most lively jobs- no wonder they'll become those ppl who without any reason start yelling - Literally for no reason!

Their attention spans lesser than that of a goldfish, their patience below the sea level, their routine worser than a 9-5 low wage worker ! And output - None! Literally Nothing positive, nothing at all

Children below the age of 1 should have their screentime less than a sec and u’ll find those un-talkable babies watching violence, overstimulating shorts, with a mind that didn’t even grow properly leading to die even before it’s life began(neural network degradation)

But, here, I want to talk to PARENTS - whose phone it is , who let their babies get distracted even before it began! Disturbing the mind who learns a language even before knowing any, which learns through observing faces with a dose of 100% curiosity..

Dear Parents,

Have u seen the feed of ur kids?

No?

Lemme tell u then,

• Are ur Parents toxic?
• Leave, let ur parents tell anything, ur work is to focus..
• Yes thr r titles - Ur success shld be so well that u can get ur parents to sit in their dream car, to live in their dream home and to give a great return of all the un- sufficing sacrifice ..

What I want to tell u is stop telling ur child his/her problem only! Only problem? Why ? From where will that kid get a solution if not his parents?

Social media? So called “friends”? Teachers in school who r busy finishing the syllabus? counsellors whom child feels awkward to speak to?

These 7-13 yr olds, The Gen z and alpha, have a different childhood, no board games, not much outdoors time and at extreme - either anger or a complete silent one!

There is a solution to every problem

As There is a key to every lock

Where there is a will, there is a way!

U want to complete the targets by ur workplace, what about ur child?

The solution is not giving the remote to the kid and working at home!

What r u for?

K, fine, I understand, u’re busy, so u send him to online classes, or offline,but putting the pressure of competitive exams on that head who does not share his problem to u, or to his “friends”, or anyone else?

U sleep when he wakes up, that nanny does that or not, who cares? U’re not with him!

Atleast don't turn on the TV while he just sat to study..

Atleast, when he joined the class, don't tell his teacher that he's nothing!(He's just not discovered his potential!)

Don’t ask the teacher to ask him to write anything by copying, just bcz he doesn’t sit for studying!

See, if u keep on telling

• I'll send u to hostel (it's a gd place, structure, bond, concentration, etc, distraction)
• I'm seeing, idk when I'll give u nicely!
• Stop speaking when I am( Arre , listen to him, u may be wrong too)

And lo! The illusion—elders r never wrong, can never apologize, we lil' ones r idiots no!

Ayyo he’s studying no, why to interrupt? R u sure he’s studying - a q to fathers especially, who r busy(idk — maybe busy in the “right” busy way?) all the time.. Least bothered to know what he’s actually doing? Even if he’s studying, is he doing it the right way?

See once, sit with the kid, urs only no, ur blood only no! When U’re not even busy, stop lying to urself, and to others(uk who “others” are), even u can be in a muddle, Accept the truth!

Those scientists(on social media, who created the algorithms to keep u stuck on their platform) r very clever to keep u stuck using well in this deadly loop!

Play, cook , talk with the child..

When the child doesn’t speak with respect at all, not correcting him every time he repeats it, not appreciating the child when he did the thing the right way... And beating him up with words and physically too, when u got fed up of his actions..

What the child sees is what happened now! Not the previous times he did the mistake, they live in the present.. they don’t care what gift u gave them just the last week... Maybe bcz u didn’t properly teach that minor how to be grateful and have a sense of gratitude when he’s got something, not jealousy or show-off to his mates/ so called “friends” that he’s got this and that

See, the times have changed, the way ur parents taught u, cold stared at u with eyes.. now if u do that - these Gen zs and Gen alphas might only will grow seeds of hatred for u.. they might forget what u did last week or just the last second - food, water, milk, gift, a place to sit, a way to his life’s existence - nothing!

Only that u spoke rudely, hit him, his response will be - what have u even done for me? Who r u? And now many kids have begun using the classic vulgarity from the shorts u've allowed him to enjoy with, just so that u cld do ur job quickly, so that he doesn't throw a tantrum around the house..

Understand this—All u’re doing is ruining his character no matter what good values u teach him.. these effects and efforts simply get neutralized in his mind..

U can be wrong too, u too can be in a muddle..

U need not prove ur previous phrase true just bcz u want to show u're right all the time..

It’s totally fine, ur child will understand that mistakes can be forgiven..

He’ll learn from u.. that is what u want ur child to learn isn’t it? Then set the example, be his idol..so that when he’s asked who he admires, who’s personality it would be that inspired him to willing to be what he wants - he says - My parents ❤️,with all his heart

Don’t degrade urself in front of him, show him that no matter what the situation is how u tackle it- positively!

Don’t be the person ur child is afraid of.. u might be a kid to ur parents, but to him, u’re his guardian and u’re ready to accept criticism politely.. teach the child to point out not only mistakes or problems, but the good in every 'single' thing- cz that’s what Allah wants us to feel- jo bhi hota hai, acche ke liye hota hai..

Stop regretting about ur life’s decisions, the past, and what those ppl didn’t do for u or ur family! If they had done that maybe I, u, or ur child, wouldn’t have been here, u wouldn’t have met the bestest ppl of ur life’s existence, u wouldn’t have experienced those nostalgic experiences, or might have had a worser persona..

Bcz— "But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not." (Quran 2:216){Subhanallah- beautiful ❤️}

See, He keeps u away from things u think that u thought u literally wanted, but, always Allah has a better plan for u, sorry , not better - The Best!

If u find ur spouse, ur kids, ur family afraid to say a thing in front of u, their hearts thumping terribly about ur response, ur reaction, u must realise that u can be wrong too.. A home is a place where the family can let their tired and stressed body & mind and u become the boss - the khadoos one- melt ur heart at once .. ppl outside might need ur help, ur presence, but ur home is where ur requirement is the most!

Even men(I hope to point out the right audience) can work at home, lay down the tables, and even make mistakes!

Apologizing for what u did is not something that diminishes ur image, it creates it, and ur creation, yes, this one - is a good one..

If ur child argues with u , doesn't willingly respect u, and respect u only bcz u'll be angry and start a house war(not home war..- cz home wars get resolved and members understand each other, house war bcz u don't accept ur mistake! Not the others either)

I'm tired of typing, and trying my best to think of every possibility of injustice at homes —not houses, cz the problem at homes can get resolved, not the one at houses where no one cares to apologise and keeping unfair fairness on top of their heads- prefrontal cortex and all the false-truths they believe only bcz "Everyone does it"...

That’s it..

I can only hope for u to understand that u can be wrong too.. even u can be in a muddle— Accept it and work hardly and smartly take care of the bonds of ur home..

Insha Allah

Alhamdulillah